i can’t even fucking function right now. i think i just drank way too much strong coffee. and school is way too close and i have to read two books. i have to read TWO BOOKS. and I’m basically mentally retarded from all the pot.
i have this really serious problem that everyone should be worried about.
i don’t have a boyfriend. and i’m 16 and I have an obsessive, addictive personality. I am currently addicted to coffee, loud music, and masturbation. and am addicted to lumberjack looking men (see pablo, see andy from parks and rec, see CT from vampire weekend, see seth rogen), blogging about my problems, and probably pot. wow. that was an extremely brutally honest moment for me.
i’m not even pms-ing. so i must just be fucking crazy (or just a 16 year old girl) because i just cried over an episode of parks and rec because no one in my life looks like andy or is andy and i just want a fucking 29 year old teddy bear loser with a beard to PAY ATTENTION TO ME. oh my god, i’m fucking lose it.
if i don’t have a boyfriend by christmas i’m going to fucking rip someone’s face off. and that’s final. i really need to find someone to make out with.
i have this guy friend who i should really hang out with because he’s in a really vulnerable spot right now but the thing is…if i see him like this I will try to kiss him because he’s attractive and interesting enough and i will seriously wretch shit in our friendship if i do this but i am honestly just crazy enough right now. i know this moment will pass and I’m just really caffeinated right now but i feel fucking crazy and hormonal and wow i really just need a boy i need a boy i need a boy i need a boy efkjsbfjkbdgogobdjojwgoidabva FUCK shit shit shit shit shits htishtishrieshgihishstihtishtsihtsihtsihtishti oh my hol y shit i need friends all my friends hate me I’m so fucking alone i don’t want to go beach to school,rg jbgkfhdofjkn i need a beach house someone somewhere i need to get out of this house………..okay I’m done.
I AM FUCKING PSYCHO.